Today I hurt myself, accidentally. A bit of light gardening, and the blade slipped to reveal far more than I would have guessed. After recently feeling suicidal on a couple of occasions, I knew I was no longer in the healthy state of recovery which I had been striving to attain. However, for these feelings … Continue reading 316 days without self-harm
Night Sky The day draws to a close As night begins to fall, Heralded by night time’s chorus. Shafts of moonlight pierce the dark, Only to be hidden by clouds Moving, so gently, in the cool breeze. Dark, quiet, and empty, Not a thing disturbs the silence. As you gaze at your surroundings, you … Continue reading Relapsing after months of improvement
The Unsung Song A beautiful, haunting note Echoes through the stillness, A lone voice in a deserted place. The sound travels across the water, Trees move to the melody, But no-one hears your song. Fear and rejection stole your voice Before you knew it was there. As the dark hides the light, So … Continue reading Dwelling on the past
I feel your long fingers trying to take hold of me, trying to suffocate me. You bring despair and remove all hope, trying to convince me that there is nothing left for me in this life. But you are lying. I have things to live for, I deserve to be here. I want to be … Continue reading Standing up to suicide
For too long you have longingly searched for freedom; it eludes you still. Yet once more you look across the vast expanse, seeking comfort in solitude, not realising that this desolate place is the reflection of your heart. Before I sought help, I chose to isolate myself and pretend that all was well. Writing has … Continue reading Seek help
Did you know that you are loved, and not a burden? That you are beautiful, and valuable? That you are not a mistake, but have a purpose? Did you know that you are not a failure, but have accomplished so much? That your opinion is important, and your voice needs to be heard? That you … Continue reading If you’re struggling
"How are you doing?" Something that is asked all the time, but all too often is answered with half-truths. "I'm fine" is far easier than admitting vulnerability, hurt, depression, and loneliness. Honestly, I don't know how I'm doing. What would you like me to say? "Everything is good, thanks"? That's not true, not really. Do … Continue reading How are you doing, really?